someone else

"What if the person you loved became someone else?"
-Possession, 1999

Scary.

Whether it be someone else better or someone else worst. The thought of change is something that one should stand up to when loving - because everyday it happens, and it happens from moment to moment.

What would you do if he adores you now and turns his head the minute the girl next door passes by? What would you think if he gives you only one long stemmed rose from supposed to be a dozen boquet? What would you feel if he's crazy about you and suddemly talks about how the past has made you so inadequate.

Even anticipation could not spare youu from hurting especially when you need security instead. Even knowing the person you love does not guarantee that when these changes happen it is going to be pain-free. No wisdom can shield you from the rocks that will fall upon you, nor could it hold you from falling on those sharp ones.

Change, though, should not make you love less. You can decide to persist. Unless...

you look into his eyes and see someone else.

cindy on the loose again

I have enjoyed.

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up karma down

I am gonna miss my long hair...goodbye split ends and tangles. Of course, I am not gonna miss being pissed off every morning when I am trying to look decent and not some frustrated bold starlet of the 60's. :-) hehe!

I am looking forward to long hours of travel today. I will be seeing calming sights of the countryside. Vangie and I will be coming over to Nabas to attend Divine's burial tomorrow. For the last time, I am gonna send off my friend to her corporal resting place. How I wish she could have seen my reddish hair. For sure, she will say, "Ate, ang arte mo talaga!!!" Someday, we will see each other in the most beautiful state.

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The bygone wrongs bring forth sorrows and woes The bygone right breeds bliss. "This is the doctrine of Karma.”

What goes around comes around. This is the law of cause and effect. I came accross an article explaining how Karma works. Somehow, I had been skeptical about it, believing only that vengeance is not ours. Well, not ours really, but fate has a way of picking us up from the fall or pulling us down when we are way up there and out of control. It could either show its effect immediately, or its gonna exhaust its strength in the future. I am enlightened and encouraged to do more good. It is like banking for the future. It is an assurance more than Social Security could ever provide.

In the next lifetime, what entitiy would I be? Of course I don't wanna be an ape!!! Bloody hell! Ang panget, uy! I wanna be a butterfly. A princess butterfly. Colorful, free-flying and an agent of pollenation. Beauty with a purpose, huh.

Whatever. Just feeling queer. Hope to get a little lucky today.

new leaf

Isn't it more of an overthrown flower, instead?

Anyway, I am glad that finally, my site looks shiny and new. It took me a long time to find a three-column template which would suit the title of my blog better. Well, of course, there are still the old ones, but most of it would be something this page couldn't do without.

Happy about the changes. Looking forward to finding more of myself as I blog on.

dreaming of distant comfort

This had been another rough day. I woke up as early as 6.30 am and had been awake ever since. It's Monday, and as usual, it was manic. I had to toss whatever I could pull out from the closet into my tote. I had to bring some clothes to the pad because I am anticipating a really hectic work week.

I was correct. Monday, indeed, started busy. I had a lot to cope with, since I just came from a one-week escapade. So i have to face the consequences of my absence. I am praying that tomorrow everything will be alright.

Boracay, is it too far away?